~FOURTH STEP SECRETS ~
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"These are weighty secrets and we must whisper them."
Sarah Chauncey Woolsey (Susan Coolidge)
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When I came to the Recovery Group, I was wearing the pain of a lifetime of well-kept secrets - secrets about a childhood of poverty and secrets about a difficult marriage. No one ever saw my secret pain; I never shared it with anyone. But all could see the effects of the food I used as a coping mechanism. Because of my willingness "to do whatever it takes," I shared these secrets with the person who took my 5th step. I later shared it with my sponsor and some of them later with a sponsee during her 5th step. Sharing this pain
the first two times was like the bursting of a painful abscess, with poison being released. The poison that
kept me living in resentful, negative thinking has been gradually replaced with gratitude for what I had and now have, and with the ability to experience joy in my many, many blessings.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will experience gratitude for the gifts I was given in my 4th and 5th steps and for the gifts of this program.