~ THE THIRD STEP ~
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There are those who feel surrendering to
God is an act of weakness. There was a
time in my life that I did, also
... and, if not a weakness, then
certainly surrender was unnecessary. I
felt God just didn't have the time to
spend on the lesser issues of my life
... but what I discovered is that those
"lesser" issues became some of the
biggest issues I would ever have to deal
with. One was my compulsive eating. How
dare I ask God to handle that! This was
MY problem. MY weakness. MY Hell. What
right did I have to inflict that on God?
And now they're telling me to turn not
only my will but my very life over to
Him?
The bravest thing I ever did was get
down on my knees one day with tears
streaming down my face and beg God to
help me with this compulsion that was
taking its toll on the quality of my
life. For the first time, I told Him
that I gave up ... that I could no
longer deal with this ... and that I was
turning this and my life over to Him to
do with as He could ... and would. From
that day to this ... whether it be food,
relationships or whatever ... I walk
hand-in-hand with God and try to do what
I believe He is telling me to do. I have
to do that ... because I remember the
feeling I was experiencing that day when
I first surrendered .. and I never want
to go back there.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will walk hand in hand with my Greater
Power. Each morning and each evening
and often in between, My Higher Power
hears these words ... I love you, God.