Recovery Meditations ~ Slow Suicide ~ September 15 2010

SLOW SUICIDE

"He who does not use his endeavors to heal himself is brother to him who commits suicide."

Solomon

Rather than a regular, sudden suicide, I have subtly entertained the idea of slow suicide. I have neglected myself: my health, my vision and my gifts. I have either taken actions that have harmed me, or I have neglected to take actions that would have helped me to live a longer and more productive life. I have stuffed my face with garbage, accepting that as my fate.

Today I have a program that teaches me that I can’t take care of myself alone and that I can, and will, receive help. I accept that help with humility, taking the Steps I am shown and using the tools I am offered. I begin to see that I have something to offer others and my life takes on new meaning and purpose.

One Day at a Time . . .


I pray that I will say "yes" to my own life today, and take actions which represent that "yes."