Recovery Meditations ~ God Is ~ One Day at a Time ~ December 12, 2010

~ GOD IS ~

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A life lived in fear is a life half-lived.
Tara Morice as Fran, from the movie "Strictly Ballroom"

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Open your eyes and the whole world is full of God.

Jakob Bohme


When I was a child, my family never

talked about God. I never knew the light

of God, never felt His love or power, or

recognized His presence in my life. When

things were rough, I could only see the

darkness. When I was lonely, I didn't

know He was with me all the time. When I

was weak or scared, I thought I had to

overcome and be strong, and not be

afraid. I didn't feel His presence with

me, or believe that He was watching over

me. Then, for twenty years I was married

to a religious man who did talk about

God. I tried so hard to believe as he

did, but his words soon lost their

meaning. The abuse began to overshadow

the hope that things would change, and

the belief that God would make

everything okay, if only I believed like

my husband. For years I have struggled

with my faith, trying to believe in a

God that was willing to light my way,

love me, and protect me ... not just in

the good times, but in the painful

times.

When I first came into recovery, I was

still struggling, but I became "willing

to believe" that God cared about me. I

started watching for signs that He was

there, ready to light my path when I

could see only the darkness, ready to

enfold me in His arms when I felt

unloveable, and ready to protect me when

I was scared. I became willing to

recognize His presence in my day-to-day

life.

Now that I am willing, I can find God's

love everywhere ... in a friendly smile,

in the kind words of a friend, in the

beauty of a flower, and in a child's

eyes. Sometimes, when life gets rough, I

have to look a little harder, but it's

there. I only have to remain open and

willing to see it and accept

it. Wherever I am, God is there with me,

ready to love and protect me.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will be willing to see God's presence in my life, and know that wherever I am, God is. I will let go, and let God be there.