Recovery Meditations ~ Feeling Overwhelmed ~ One Day at a Time ~ January 10, 2011

~ FEELING OVERWHELMED ~
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The social workers have named a new syndrome.

It's called "compassion fatigue."

Why does it sound so familiar?

Anne Wilson Schaef


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For most of my life I have always cared for

others, and have always been in the

caring professions. I didn't think that was

a bad thing until I was brought to my knees

and arrived at my first program meeting.

One of the character defects that I found

I had was people pleasing. Because I was

always trying to help and fix others, I also

knew that I had a problem with control and

lack of acceptance.

One of the things I am learning in the program

is that, because for so many years I had

hidden my emotions in food, there are still

many layers of the onion that I haven't even

begun to peel away. The amazing thing is that

it is only when I reach a rock bottom of some

sort that I am forced to look deeper at many

issues that I have blocked for years. What I

realize now is that I have spent so many years

of my life taking care of others that I have

forgotten to take care of me. No wonder I feel

so overwhelmed!

I'm a compulsive caregiver, but in doing that,

I have often neglected to see to my own needs.

I am so grateful that I have become open to

looking further into why I have always put others'

needs before mine, and to being able to detach

with love from many issues over which I am

powerless, so that I can take better care of me.


ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I will remember that in order to be able to care for and love others, I must first learn to care for and love myself.