Recovery Meditations ~ Recovery ~ One Day At A Time ~ January 15, 2011

~ RECOVERY ~
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Survival is nothing more than recovery.

Dianne Feinstein
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As a very young child, I had a loving

relationship with my Higher Power. I talked

to God all the time about the things I

didn't understand. I asked for His help in

making me a better person, daughter,

granddaughter, etc.

Then, as happens in dysfunctional families,

things got worse. Being the youngest, I

became the scapegoat for people who

didn't know how to express anger and pain

properly. I, too, learned inappropriate ways

to express my feelings. I also began to turn

against my Higher Power. Why wasn't He

helping me? Why was He letting me be so

unhappy? Why wasn't He answering my

prayers? Why hadn't I awakened thin yet?

It took me many years to destroy my

relationship with God, but thankfully, it

only took a few years of the Twelve Step

program for me to rediscover my former

relationship with Him. As my eating

disorders have been lessened and

abstinence has become the norm in my

life, I am very grateful for the Higher Power

in my life today. I truly feel as if I've

gained something I once lost. Thanks to

recovery, I've also gained things I never

had or don't remember having. I have

a peace, serenity, acceptance,

understanding and love that I can never

remember experiencing before. The more I

trust in my Higher Power, the more rewards

of recovery become mine.


ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I will work my program and be grateful for the level of recovery I'm currently experiencing.
When I feel a lack of growth within myself, I will look at how far I've come and trust that my growth is in my Higher Power's time, not mine.