Recovery Meditations ~ The Present Moment ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 20, 2011

~ THE PRESENT MOMENT ~


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How simple it is to see that we can only

be happy now, and there will never be a

time when it is not now.


Gerald Jampolsky

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During my many years of life as an

compulsive eater, I thought happiness

was something that was the privilege of

other people. I could not imagine that

happiness would be a part of my

life. All I really wanted was to lose

weight.

My issues with food and weight colored

everything else. I always thought the

biggest weight I carried was physical in

nature. When I accepted the fact that I

have a disease, and the weight I carried

was physical, emotional and spiritual,

my life began to change immeasurably. As

I took the Steps to recovery, I began to

experience healing on all three

levels. I began to see life differently,

and to live life in a whole new way.

Before recovery, I could not see the

precious moment of the present. My eyes

were focused on regret of the past, and

fear of the future. I totally missed the

complete joy of each present

moment. Recovery has helped me to clear

up weight I carried from my past, and to

eliminate my fear of the future;

replacing fear with faith. As I live in

recovery, I can choose to be present in

each moment, and enjoy the wonder and

delight that is the gift of life.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I choose to live in the present moment ... and to embrace the happiness found there.

Recovery Meditations ~ Happiness ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 19, 2011

~ HAPPINESS ~


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The greatest happiness you can have is

knowing that you do not necessarily

require happiness.


William Saroyan

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How many times during my life have I

said that all I want is "just to be

happy." We are told early on that our

legacy is "life, liberty and the pursuit

of happiness." Did you notice that our

forefathers used the word "pursuit?" How

very wise they were.

Happiness is not automatic. Life is

difficult and it's supposed to be that

way. If we expect happiness and we

expect life to be easy, at some point in

time we are going to be very

disappointed. I thought eating food made

me happy and it did ... for a short

time. There were other temporary

compulsions in my life that made me

think I was happy ~ but again for only a

short time.

As I began to work the Steps, I began to

desire something other than happiness. I

found myself yearning for serenity

... and I found it. The way I found it

was by not expecting the world and

everyone in it to make me happy. I

learned that life was more of an

adventure than a bowl of cherries. I

learned that the more I expected from

people, places and things, the more

disappointed I was ... and the more

disappointed I became, the less happy I

was.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will not require happiness. But when I least expect it .... happiness will find me.

Recovery Meditations ~ Unconditional Love ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 18, 2011

~ UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ~


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The ultimate lesson all of us have to

learn is unconditional love, which

includes not only others but ourselves

as well.


Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

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I don't think I knew what unconditional

love was before I came into the program.

After all, I had always felt that my

mother had only loved and accepted me

conditionally, and that in order for me

to receive approval and love from her, I

had to be the best at everything I

did. I had to be at the top of the

class, win prizes for ballet and in

general be a credit to her, so that she

could bask in the reflected

limelight. Perhaps that was only my

perception. But as a result, I wrote a

script for myself that, in order to be

loved, accepted and loveable, I had to

excel at everything. I became an

overachiever academically, I had to be

the best wife, best mother, best cook,

in short, the best everything. No wonder

I had to eat to cope with all this

self-inflicted pressure.

The unconditional love and acceptance I

received when I first came into these

program rooms was something I had never

experienced before. "Let us love you

until you can learn to love yourself,"

they said. This was something totally

foreign to me. How could I be loveable

when I was fat and bloated? How could

they love me when I hated myself for all

the secret eating that caused me to feel

totally miserable? But love me they did,

and that was the beginning of my

healing. At one stage fairly early in my

recovery, one of my daughters accused me

of being so busy going to meetings and

doing courses and learning to love

myself, that I was too busy to love

them. How wrong she was! It was only

when I had learned enough self-love and

approval of myself, exactly as I was,

that I was able to love all my children

fully and unconditionally.

I am now able to love and accept all my

children exactly as they are. None of

them are perfect, as I am not, but they

are special in their own right, and I

love them for who they are and not for

anything they do or don't do.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I practice being warm and accepting of


all those I love, as I accept and love


myself for being who I am today -- a


child of God.

Recovery Meditations ~ Fearless ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 17, 2011

~ FEARLESS ~

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As we felt new power flow in, as we

enjoyed peace of mind, as we discovered

we could face life successfully, as we

became conscious of His presence, we

began to lose our fear of today,

tomorrow or the hereafter.

The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

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I refuse to be frightened to the point

of missing the opportunities my Higher

Power has provided for me. I won't hurt

myself by avoiding being hurt. That's

what I do when I avoid risks because I'm

afraid the outcome will be painful.

When I'm engulfed in fear, I am not

trusting my Higher Power. When I look

back, hasn't He done for me what I

couldn't do for myself? Can I name

those times? Possibly a doomed

relationship I couldn't end and God

ended for me by having the other person

walk away? Maybe a financial crisis

that was suddenly alleviated from an

unexpected source? How about the ability

to detach from a loved one's issues

without feeling responsible for "fixing"

everything or taking their struggles

personally?

Today I will be grateful for even the

painful times because, sometimes, they

are the lesser of two hurts--the easiest

being when God steps in to protect me

and the hardest being when my will

prevents me from letting go of something

that isn't good for me.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will trust my Higher Power and know


that where I am today is right where I


need to be. I don't have to have all


the answers.

Recovery Meditations ~ Forgiveness ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 16, 2011

~ FORGIVENESS ~

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Forgiving is not forgetting; it's

letting go of the hurt.

Mary McCleod Bethune

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When I first came into the program, I

was so fired up with anger and

resentment that I had no space for any

other emotions. After all, I had the

food which would anesthetize me against

any emotions I didn't want to feel. I

was angry with God for all the trauma

and losses that had happened to me in my

life. I blamed my mother for not being

the kind of mother I wanted, which was,

of course, why I ate. But the person

towards whom I felt the most anger and

resentment was my ex-husband, who never

financially supported my children,

making my financial burden and my

present husband's very heavy. What made

it worse was that he was good to the

children and they thought he was great

because they would have fun with him on

a weekend, while we had all the

financial responsibilty and resulting

worry.

But when I came to Step Eight, my

sponsor gently reminded me that I needed

to forgive the people towards whom I

felt the most anger, namely my mother

and my ex-husband. My mother had passed

away and so I had to write a long letter

to her, forgiving her for not being the

person I wanted her to be and also

making amends to her for my part in it

all. I realize now that she did the best

she knew how, just as I have done with

my children, and I have been able to

forgive her with love. When it came to

forgiving my ex-husband, I knew that I

wasn't able forgive him in person, but I

was able to write a letter to him which

I never sent. In it, I forgave him for

being the irresponsible person that he

is. It was like a weight had been

lifted from my shoulders. When my

younger daughter had her 21st birthday,

I could be there for her and not spoil

it as I had done before, and in fact, I

could be almost friendly to her father.

As a result, the relationship with all

my children has improved a hundredfold,

but more importantly, I'm a much better

person for it.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will forgive the people who have


harmed me, let them go with love, and


entrust them to their Higher Power.

Recovery Meditations ~ Success ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 15, 2011

~SUCCESS ~

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I have begun everything with the idea

that I could succeed, and I never had

much patience with the multitudes of

people who are always ready to explain

why one cannot succeed. I have always

had a high regard for the man who could

tell me how to succeed.


Booker T. Washington

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The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous is

my main source of inspiration when it

comes to recovery issues. It's proven to

be a valuable asset to my program.

I've learned from the Big Book that

recovery from any compulsive disease is

possible. We are given Twelve Steps to

follow, and told that if we do what our

predecessors did, then we WILL recover.

We have to be willing to go to any

length to succeed. We have to do the

footwork. The people who don't succeed

in this program are the ones who don't

avail themselves of all the help that's

available to them. They don't read the

literature, they don't go to meetings,

they don't do service ... they don't do

what those who have gone before have

done. So they wallow in their disease

instead of recovering.

There's a reason why we're told, "Rarely

have we seen a person fail who has

thoroughly followed our path." That

means the program works IF you work

it. Those who don't work the program

don't recover. That's a pretty powerful

statement, but it's true, and for some

reason, a lot of compulsive people just

don't get it. They keep doing the same

old things and getting the same old

results. In the process, they remain

fully in the grip of their

disease. Sure, recovery is a miracle,

but it won't fall into your lap. You

need to work for it, and by the grace of

the God of your understanding, you'll

receive the miracle.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I remember that it's not enough to talk


the talk; I need to walk the walk if I


want to recover.

Recovery Meditations ~ Be Still ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 14, 2011

Recovery Meditations para RECOVERYMEDITA.


~ BE STILL ~


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Be still, and know that I am God.


The Bible, Book of Psalms

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I don't always know what "normal"

is. I'm learning that my disease keeps

me from having a normal relationship

with food, but I also know that there

are times when my feelings and thoughts

are due to normal circumstances. I might

not feel well physically, I could be

fatigued from a demanding task, or I

might simply be having an off day. There

are normal reactions to these situations

and I can feel them. Not everything is

caused by my disease!

However, the way I handle these kinds of

experiences can very much be affected by

my disease. On those bad days, I don't

have to make important decisions and I

don't have to filter experiences through

these thoughts and feelings. I can

postpone things until I'm on a more even

keel and, just for today, take care of

myself and do the next right thing.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I am grateful for the ways I am "normal"


and thank God for the knowledge that I


don't have to let my disease make me


think everything about me is "sick." Let


me simply be still on those uneven days


and know that God is God and He is


there.

Recovery Meditations ~ Freedom ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 13, 2011

~ FREEDOM ~

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And ye shall know the truth, and the

truth shall make you free.

The Bible, Book of John

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In the past, when I was threatened by

another person's thoughts, beliefs,

actions, or desires, I simply deemed

them completely unacceptable and worked

hard to convince the other person just

how wrong they were. I cited all kinds

of religious doctrine and politically

correct ideas to try to convince the

other person why their ideas were

unacceptable.

This "convincing" was nothing more than

an attempt to control another so I

wouldn't have to face myself or any of

the things that caused me anxiety and

fear. All I succeeded in doing was

forcing others to help me lie to

myself. Of course, this also created its

own anxiety and fear, so I had to do

something to cover it up. What did I do?

I compulsively overate, I binged, I

purged, I exercised, I starved myself, I

abused laxatives, and on and on.

Today, because of my Higher Power and

the gifts of this program, I can look at

why some thoughts, feelings, beliefs and

desires threaten me. I can be gentle

with myself as I look at which of my

"boo-boo buttons" have been pushed. I

can ask myself how I've been hurt by

these ideas in the past and learn how

those "boo-boo buttons" were produced in

the first place.

Just like a wound, exposing my hurts to

the sunlight helps them heal. Bringing

them out into the light helps me see all

the truth about them--not just the

distorted parts I felt in the

darkness. I can see what my part was and

I can see what the part of others may

have been. Through working the Twelve

Steps, I can find peace with these hurts

and experience the promise of not

regretting or wanting to close the door

on the past.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I can set myself free from the darkness by looking at past hurts in the light of truth.

Recovery Meditations ~ Family ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 12, 2011

~ FAMILY ~
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Call it a clan, call it a network, call

it a tribe, call it a family: Whatever

you call it, whoever you are, you need

one.


Jane Howard (from the book "The Simple Abundance Journal of Gratitude" by Sarah Ban Breathnach)

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As an only child of parents who

immigrated and left their own families

behind, I have always felt that I was

missing out on the great wealth of

sharing and caring that I saw other

people have in their families. That was

before recovery.

Today, I have an extended family -- not

only by marriage -- but by the simple

fact that my Higher Power led me to the

great wealth of caring and sharing that

I have found in perhaps the strangest

place of all -- cyberspace -- in the

form of online recovery loops.

Being prone to isolation, my disease

first led me to seek out others who have

struggled with compulsive overeating,

and that, in turn, led me to my new

'family.' As someone so wonderfully

expressed it to me recently, it's a

"family of choice." What a concept! My

family of choice not only has sisters

and brothers, it also is filled with

mothers and fathers, aunts and uncles --

more than I could ever have dreamed of

before, and each brings into my life

more experience, strength and hope than

I could ever have imagined.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I thank God that I have found this huge, loving family that constantly offers me hope, inspiration, understanding ... and most of all love.

Recovery Meditations ~ Fear ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 11, 2011

~ FEAR ~

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What I have always feared has happened to me.

What I have dreaded has come to be.


The Bible, Book of Job

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There are different kinds of fear. Some

fear is good, because it helps us to be

able to preserve our life. Babies, for

example, have a fear of falling. It just

seems to be a natural instinct. Any fear

that protects us from harming ourselves

is a good fear.

However, when fear becomes an obsession,

it is getting out of hand. "What I have

always feared" has come to pass. Why do

we go looking for trouble? There is a

saying, "Don't let clouds of fear of the

morrow hide today's sunshine." We can

get so anxious about what's going to

happen in the future that we don't enjoy

living today.

Life is a precious gift to be lived one

day at a time, and is to be shared with

others. This New Year, let us pass this

gift on to our friends and family,

especially our friends in recovery


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


This is how I will live my life: One day at a time, one moment at a time, sharing my precious gift with another through Twelve Step giving.

Recovery Meditations ~ Aging ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 10, 2011

~ AGING ~

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Those who love deeply never grow old;

they may die of old age, but they die young.


Benjamin Franklin

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I used to be afraid of getting older. I

was also afraid to become friends with

older people, because I would come to

love them and then they would die. I

could not handle unpleasant feelings

(other than if I overate to stop feeling

them) because the feeling of

unpleasantness would totally devastate

me.

In working the Twelve Step program, my

Higher Power has brought me great

recovery in this area ... I am now able

to handle the grief and sorrow that come

up when I allow myself to get to know

and love older people and then they

die. I am now free in this area! I get

to enjoy the wisdom and beauty that they

have to share, from all their life

experiences, and from the beautiful

people they are!

Another beautiful gift from my Higher

Power came when I started relating to

older people again. When the first one

died, it really threw me, and I was very

sad. But I got up the next day and had a

great spiritual awakening: this person

was missing and that was sad, but I

looked around and saw all the other

wonderful people still there in my life,

with whom I got to share another day!

Life suddenly became much more precious

to me ... to have one more day to be

with and share with someone who touches

my soul!


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I enjoy myself as I become older. I allow myself to enjoy friendships with those who are older than me. I thank my Higher Power for every day and every moment of precious life!

Recovery Meditations ~ Feelings ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 9, 2011

~ FEELINGS ~


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Few are those who see with their own

eyes and feel with their own hearts.


Albert Einstein

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Before working the Twelve Step program,

one reason I used to overeat was that I

couldn't manage my feelings. My feelings

were overwhelming and incapacitating to

me. I would also overreact to feelings

and this would make them truly more than

I could handle. So I would then overeat

to make the feelings stop. I would stuff

myself, to stuff them down!

In working the Twelve Step program, I

got a chance to work through past hurts

and resentments that intensified my

feelings. I learned to feel my feelings,

just as they are, and how to stop

overreacting to them. I learned to sort

through messages my family gave me about

feelings, that it's not okay to have or

feel or express them. I learned to

decide what is true for me, today, about

feelings. I also worked through my

codependency issues and learned how to

communicate feelings in an appropriate,

effective and loving way.

Now feelings are a part of my life and

not something overwhelming and

incapacitating. In fact, they have

become something beautiful that enrich

my life and give it color and texture

and even pleasure.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I honor the blessing of having my


feelings returned to me. I enjoy them,


and I respect my feelings and those of


others. I thank my Higher Power for this


wonderful gift.

Recovery Meditations ~ Willingness ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 8, 2011

~ WILLINGNESS ~

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I cannot change what I am unwilling to face.

James Baldwin

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Before I found this program I was locked

in a battle with myself. I knew I was

eating too much, and I couldn't help

myself. I tried to control my eating,

and for a while, I was able to keep the

upper hand. Then something would happen

in my life, and I'd lose that control.

I couldn't face the fact that I was a

compulsive eater. I couldn't bear to

think that I had a disease that kept me

in bondage to food. So during the time I

was in denial about my eating, I

continued sinking deeper into my disease

of compulsion. I sought comfort in food,

and did some serious damage to my body,

to my self- esteem, and to my

relationships.

It was only after I hit bottom that I

realized that I had to face the facts. I

had a disease that had me in a death

grip, and there wasn't one thing I could

do about it. When I found this program,

I found hope. I discovered a Higher

Power who could help me do what I'd

never been able to do before. I slowly

began to see the changes I'd tried all

my life to effect on my own. But it

didn't happen until I became willing to

face the truth, until I became willing

to ask God for help.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I am willing to face my disease and let my Higher Power help me overcome it.

Recovery Meditations ~ Higher Power ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 7, 2011

~ HIGHER POWER ~

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If you spend all your time looking for

Him, you might miss Her when She shows

up.

Neale Donald Walsch


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Our program of recovery teaches us that

we each must lean on a Higher

Power. This Higher Power is also known

as "the God of my understanding." There

is nothing in this Twelve Step program

of ours that says that my Higher Power

must be the same as your Higher

Power. For some, the Higher Power in

their life is a deity. The program

itself, or a weekly meeting, might be

the Higher Power for someone else. It

doesn't matter what or who each person

has for a Higher Power.

Recovery is possible for everyone. Those

who believe in one God can come together

with those who believe in many Gods, or

maybe no God at all. The atheist has

just as much chance of recovery as a

very religious person. The beauty of

this program is that it works for

everybody, regardless of their approach

to the spiritual aspect. That is why it

is imperative that we accept each

other's ideas of a Higher Power. What

works for one individual might not work

for another. But one thing is sure

... the program that works if you work

it, regardless of which Higher Power you

decide on.



ONE DAY AT A TIME ...

I will work my program with my Higher


Power, the God of my understanding, and


allow others to work their program with


the God of their understanding.

Recovery Meditations ~ Courage ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 6, 2011

~ COURAGE ~
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It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else.

Erma Bombeck
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I remember first starting my Twelve Step

program. I had lots of expectations and

dreams, but I couldn't talk to anyone

about them. I thought my dreams were

stupid and that nobody there really

cared about who I was or what I wanted

to achieve.

This is a big problem with all of us

compulsive overeaters. We all have hopes

and dreams of losing our impulse to eat

all the time, and of losing our excess

weight. Thinking we're not worth

anyone's time keeps us strong in our

addiction.

As we work through the Steps and learn

to trust our new family of choice, we

get the courage to begin to open up and

share our dreams and hopes. We all find

our hidden courage by praying and

trusting our Higher Power. We find the

courage to tell people about ourselves

and trust that nobody will put us down

for our past or for the future we dream

of achieving. Our dreams have no time

limit; they don't have to happen

immediately. They may happen

immediately, or it may take a long time

of struggling, but as long as we have

hope and courage, they will become a

reality in Higher Power's time.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I remember that we learn that, together, things become much easier. As we share our experience, strength and dreams with others, they will help us learn how we can work with a special program and plan. With Higher Power and our recovery friends, our courage grows stronger, and we find we can and will succeed.

Recovery Meditations ~ Courage ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 5, 2011

~ COURAGE ~

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Courage faces fear and thereby masters it.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

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I've never been a brave person and was

always very fearful. I would watch movies

where the hero would rescue the heroine,

or where someone would climb Mount

Everest, or perform some feat of daring,

and I would be totally in awe. I was afraid

of the dark, of rejection, of failure and of

most other things that I was convinced

took courage. No way would I go parasailing

or deep sea diving as that seemed to require

the courage that I lacked. I didn't understand

then that people who do those kinds of

things are not totally without fear, but they

have a way of overcoming their fear and still

doing it anyway.

When I came into the program and learned

that I would have to do an inventory and then,

worse still, make amends to the people I

had harmed, I was paralyzed by fear.

Eventually I realized that, even though I

feared doing these things, all I had to do

was ask my Higher Power for strength and

guidance and then do the things I'd most

feared. Perhaps these weren't the feats of

daring that I had seen heroes perform, but

for me they were great victories, and in being

able to do them, I knew that I was developing

courage.



ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I will continue to walk through my fear with my Higher Power at my side, knowing that I am developing the courage that I thought I lacked.

Recovery Meditations ~ Commitment ~ One Day at a Time ~ April 4, 2011

~ COMMITMENT ~
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Shallow men believe in luck ~

Strong men believe in cause and effect.


Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Abstinence did not happen for me until I

made a commitment to it. I realized that

I would have abstinence until something

was a bit too uncomfortable for me to face

or feel. Then I would have a slip. So it

became a game for me. Was this event

or circumstance enough to justify another

slip? Sure, why not? That's the nature of

the disease. Everything and anything was

an excuse to eat.

It wasn't until I made a commitment to

abstinence that I was forced to find my

solutions in the Twelve Steps and really

let go of my addiction. I'm grateful to my

Higher Power that I hit the bottom I did.

By accepting the truth about myself and

my food addiction, I am now free to live in

the solution.



ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I will renew my commitment by receiving the gift of abstinence and practicing my program to the best of my ability.

Recovery Meditations ~ The Past ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 5, 2011

~ THE PAST ~

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Even God cannot change the past.

Agathon, ancient Greek poet

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Each day of recovery, I ask my Higher

Power to help me stay focused on

today. Although there are things I would

like to change about the past, I know

that it is not possible. I’ve let myself

fall into traps, thinking "If only I had

done..." or "If only I’d said..." When I

think this way, I find myself wasting a

lot of time and feeling bad. This

doesn’t seem like healthy recovery

thinking. If amends need to be made,

then I make them. If not, then I let go

of the past.

Worrying about the past is not

productive. Regret will not fix

anything. It will merely keep me from

concentrating my efforts on where they

belong ... on the present moment.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will stay focused on what is going on around me and leave the past in the past.

Recovery Meditations ~ April 1, 2011

~ AGING ~


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Those who love deeply never grow old;
they may die of old age, but they die young.


Benjamin Franklin

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I used to be afraid of getting older. I was also afraid to become friends with older people, because I would come to love them and then they would die. I could not handle unpleasant feelings (other than if I overate to stop feeling them) because the feeling of unpleasantness would totally devastate me.

In working the Twelve Step program, my Higher Power has brought me great recovery in this area ... I am now able to handle the grief and sorrow that come up when I allow myself to get to know and love older people and then they die. I am now free in this area! I get to enjoy the wisdom and beauty that they
have to share, from all their life experiences, and from the beautiful people they are!

Another beautiful gift from my Higher Power came when I started relating to older people again. When the first one died, it really threw me, and I was very sad. But I got up the next day and had a great spiritual awakening: this person was missing and that was sad, but I looked around and saw all the other wonderful people still there in my life, with whom I got to share another day! Life suddenly became much more precious
to me ... to have one more day to be with and share with someone who touches my soul!

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I enjoy myself as I become older. I allow myself to enjoy friendships with those who are older than me. I thank my Higher Power for every day and every moment of precious life!

Recovery Meditations ~ Words ~ One Day At A Time ~ March 31, 2011

~ WORDS ~

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"Handle them carefully ...

for words have more power than atom bombs."


Pearl Strachan Hurd

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A friend wrote to me tonight about the

"healing power of words" I began to

think about that and she was

right. Words can truly heal. I thought

back to times in my life when the right

word at the right time by the right

person made an enormous difference in my

life. I also thought of the times when

words devastated me.

Many times I get busy and don't think

about what I'm going to say and words

come out and in my "busyness" of the

moment, I don't realize they could have

a double meaning. It is afterwards

... many times days afterwards .... that

I realize my choice of words were

inappropriate. We speak and listen to

tens of millions of words in our

lifetime and, perhaps, we need to weigh

the words we use more carefully. I hope,

however, that I don't ever find myself

saying words to others I don't mean or

out of fear restrict words that need to

be said.

Although this British politician of the

1930s, Pearl Strachan Hurd, said that

words have more power than atom bombs,

there is something that I find even more

powerful. Silence. Silence when there

should be words can hurt. Silence when

someone should have the courage to speak

harms. I tend to think of silence as the

ultimate insult. And yet some of the

most beautiful words ever spoken to me

were the silent ones.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


let me choose my words carefully but not so carefully that I become calous. Let me use words to heal and not hurt; to make things better and not worse; to express feelings, even negative feelings to and about others, kindly ... courageously ... carefully.