Recovery Meditations ~ The Titanic ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 30, 2011

~ THE TITANIC ~

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"Men at some time are masters of their fates."

William Shakespeare

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Our early days in OA can be compared to

being a passenger on the Titanic. As we

took our beloved and

wonderfully-powerful first three steps,

we were taking a voyage. In Step One we

realized we were on the Titanic and that

we were doomed. In Step Two we spotted a

lifeboat. And in Step Three we took our

seat in the lifeboat.

My voyage began with Step One when I

realized the connection between some

health issues I had last year and the

weight I was carrying. I had developed

"pitting edema" in both ankles. That,

along with other symptoms I had, was a

sign of congestive heart failure. I was

on the Titanic! I had lived all of my

life filled with resentments and

negative thinking which ate my very

being. I had lost much of my spiritual

strength and was in need of spiritual

renewal. I was indeed a passenger on my

own personal Titanic.

My voyage continued with Step Two. I

can't even remember the circumstances of

how I found The Recovery Group online,

but I know that my Higher Power must

have brought me here. Though I didn't

believe then what the fellowship said in

the meetings, I "acted as if" I believed

my Higher Power could relieve me of

these horrible compulsions to overeat

and to live in resentments and

negativity. That was all it took. I had

spotted the lifeboat and was "acting as

if" I believed it had come for me.

I was being changed. My early days of

abstinence were difficult, but

achievable. I had gotten into the

lifeboat. I don't remember where I was

in the steps, or when it happened, but I

will always remember where I was when I

suddenly realized that God had relieved

me of the compulsion to eat between

meals and to eat at night. That

realization had a huge impact on

me. That day I took my seat on the

lifeboat. I have been blessed with so

much recovery. This ride I am on in this

lifeboat isn't a free ride; it requires

that I work this program on a daily

basis. But when I consider the

alternative, I love the ride I am on,

and I truly cherish the other passengers

I am sharing this boat with!


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will cherish the lifeboat that this program has given me.

Recovery Meditations ~ Higher Power ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 29, 2011

~ HIGHER POWER ~

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"Think not because no man sees, such

things will remain unseen."


Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

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Recently at a meeting I heard a person

share that they weren't sure that the

program would work for them because they

did not believe in God. They were very

distressed. I wanted to get out the Big

Book and quote to them from page 47,

"When, therefore, we speak to you of

God, we mean your own conception of

God. This applies too, to other

spiritual expressions which you find in

this book. Do not let any prejudice you

may have against spiritual terms deter

you from honestly asking yourself what

they mean to you. At the start this was

all we needed to commence spiritual

growth, to effect our first conscious

relation with God as we understood Him."



Many of us have a problem with God in

the beginning of our program. We may be

atheists, agnostics, or simply have had

bad experiences regarding God or His/Her

people. We can choose the group, or the

Higher Power of another, to be our

Higher Power until we are able to begin,

bit-by-bit, to define and establish a

relationship with our own Higher

Power. I know that when I came into the

program I was very angry with God. I

used the group as my Higher Power at

first. Then I used my sponsor's God of

her understanding as my Higher Power

because He was so loving and full of

grace. We had many talks about her

God. This helped me greatly until I was

able to reconnect to my relationship

with the God of my understanding. Today

I have a full, rich and intimate

relationship with my God.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will be tolerant of others' conception


of their Higher Power and will continue


to grow in my relationship with the God


of my understanding.

Recovery Meditations ~ Serenity ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 28, 2011

~ SERENITY ~

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"Serenity is not freedom from the storm,

but peace amid the storm."

Anonymous Quote

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Why is serenity so important to our

recovery? Because darkness cannotexist

where there is light! If we can maintain

a serene state of mind as established

through our faith in HP and the BB

Promises, negative emotions and

behaviour will have no power over

us. Stress, fear, compulsiveness,

obsessiveness, resentment, guilt, shame,

willfulness, doubt, distrust, greed and

envy, have no power over a mind that is

kept in serene repose. Serenity allows

us to see situations clearly and

makewise decisions. Most importantly, by

maintaining a serene mind, we keep the

door to our High Power open.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will face each challenge with grace and serenity.

Recovery Meditations ~ Balance ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 27, 2011

~ BALANCE ~

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"I've learned that you can't have everything ...

and do everything ...at the same time."

Oprah Winfrey

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Learning about balance has been a

struggle throughout my life; both as an

addict and as a mother, friend, lover,

sister... and woman. I'm not sure if it

is my addiction that causes me to be

over-zealous when it comes to giving too

much to too many, or if my desire for

love has manifested my addiction out of

a need to feel full and satisfied. For

me, finding that spot where a

relationship is comfortable and not

one-sided, where work is just 'work' and

not all that nourishes my life... where

school is an enhancement and not a

crutch for hiding and isolating, is a

hard place to for me to find. I see

patterns within my life where I

consistently struggle for harmony and

balance. Why isn't one of anything

enough? No matter what it is that is in

my life; relationships, work, eating,

shopping, I have to work at managing

balance so that things flow at the right

pace, otherwise, my entire life is off

kilter.

But today, I don't need to struggle. I

don't need to overdo my relationships or

my work. I can do just one thing and

know that the rest will be there

tomorrow. Today I have the gifts that

have been given to me to manage my life.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I pray that God will help me to manage and balance my life so that I can do a good job with all things, especially living.

Recovery Meditations ~ Serving Others ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 26, 2011

~ SERVING OTHERS ~

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"It is one of the most beautiful

compensations of life, that no man can

sincerely try to help another without

helping himself."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

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I'm not sure when I learned about giving

service to others ... it seems like a

long time ago. There's a feeling one

gets deep inside when we do something to

help others that makes us know we want

to keep that feeling coming forever.

I believe our Higher Powers give us

certain gifts. Maybe they're all put in

a large bag and when we're born, HP

distributes them ... sort of like one

reaches in a grab bag at parties. I do

know that everyone I have ever met has

some soft of gift ... something that

they do that comes easily and becomes

something they get very good at

doing. When they start giving others

this gift, they get even better at doing

what they do ... and that "feeling"

inside begins to grow.

I was given three gifts: music,

listening to others and writing. Music

was the first gift I was aware of and I

spent my life sharing it. In adulthood I

learned I had another gift ~ the gift of

being able to listen. I realized that a

lot of people don't feel "heard." When I

spent my time listening to others, I

realized I was giving them a gift. Now I

get that same special feeling I had when

I performed in front of many people as I

quietly sit and listen to someone pour

out their heart to me. Finally, there

came a time when I began to write... and

that same feeling emerged when someone

would tell me that what I wrote made a

difference to them.

I belong to an organization where

hundreds of people give their gifts to

others each day and I finally learned

that there were reasons why so many

people devote so much of their lives to

service. It doesn't take a rocket

scientist to figure that out ... we

serve because we experience that

feeling. We serve because it makes us

feel good. We serve others because in

doing so we serve ourselves.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

Let me continue to serve.

Recovery Meditations ~ Sharing ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 25, 2011

~ SHARING ~

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"What most of us want is to be heard, to communicate."

Dory Previn

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When I am privileged to be involved in a

meeting, hear sharing and have the

opportunity to share, magic happens. For

me, it is the end of isolation, the

times of being alone with my mind and my

thoughts that run away with me as long

as they are stewing inside without me

allowing myself to give them

expression. That is why sharing is so

important. If I receive constantly

without giving, I stagnate. If I give

consistently without taking the time to

take in and be helped, I go bankrupt.

I need to share and listen for the God

of my understanding in others' voices. I

often refer to others who share as "God

with skin on." I also need to share with

others. For me, sharing is a type of

prayer, talking to my Higher Power from

my heart with others listening in on our

conversation! That way I am heard by my

HP and those at the meeting I am

attending. That is the true magic of the

program.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will reach out to others by sharing in meetings and allowing others to bless me with their sharing.

Recovery Meditations ~ Perfection ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 24, 2011

~ PERFECTION ~

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"The thing that is really hard, and
really amazing, is giving up on being
perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself."

Anna Quindlen

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"Perfect"...to me that word sounds like:
"Do it again. You didn't do it right."
That's the message I get from the voices
in my head. The messages of perfectionism tell me over and over that
I did it wrong. It's a powerful weapon when you use it as a whip against yourself, just like negative messages
when you look in a mirror. I have a choice every single moment of every single day to either pick up that whip and hurt myself, or to "get out of my own way" and be kind. I can choose to look in the mirror and be thankful, and to look at myself and feel love. It takes a lot of practice, but it is worth it.
If you love yourself more than you love anyone else, you can feel happiness again. You can create again. You can look at your shadow and say good things about it too! It's another beautiful you ~ unique and wonderfully made.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will celebrate the beauty of myself today and everyday.




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Recovery Meditations ~ Opportunity ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 23, 2011

~ OPPORTUNITY ~


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"In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity."

Albert Einstein

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Pain, struggle, and difficulty can be

catalysts for changes in me. If I am

having so much difficulty living the way

I do, then surely my current means of

coping and survival are not working. The

insanity of it all was that in spite of

all the proof I saw that those methods

did not work, I continued to live the

same way -- and suffer the same

difficulties and struggles -- for many

years. Then opportunity for change

knocked on my door. I found TRG online.

The Recovery Group program has shown me

that there are much better ways to deal

with life than to stuff myself with

food, fear, resentments, and anger. The

methods and tools I have been given here

work. My defects still rear their ugly

heads, but I no longer live focused on

-- or living in -- those defects. Now I

direct my thinking to program material,

prayer and program works. What a gift

that has been! Joy is mine for today ~

for the taking!

When I find that what I am doing today

is not working, what do I need to do? As

a COE with no recovery I would have kept

doing what wasn't working. That made no

sense, but that's what I did. Now when I

struggle with the food, I look at my

thinking, 'cause thinking affects how I

feel and feelings impact my

compulsions. When the thinking starts to

spiral downward I know I need to act. I

need to read program material, contact a

program person, pray and meditate,

and/or do program service. I need to use

the tools to get me focused back on

recovery.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will be mindful of my thinking, and


when negative or self-pitying thoughts


arise, I will remember that I have the


opportunity now to redirect and refocus


anew on recovery.

Recovery Meditations ~ Thoughts ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 22, 2011

~ THOUGHTS ~

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"The universe is transformation;

our lives are what our thoughts make it."

Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

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The power of our thoughts is astounding,

and my negative thoughts kept me in

chains for many years. I was constantly

thinking of what was not right, what I

didn't do right, what needs of mine went

unmet. My life was miserable by my own

making. My own thoughts kept me in a

prison of negativity. The only person

who had the key was me. For many years I

stayed locked in, not knowing the key

was in my possession..

When I came to the program I learned

that I had responsibility for my

"side of the street." I finally

came to understand that I was able to

change my thinking, one day at a

time. It was a slow process. It took a

life-time to learn negative thinking

patterns, and it took years to learn

positive thinking patterns. Using the

tools of the program was the key to

re-educating my mind. At meetings I

heard positive statements that others

made about themselves and me. Reading

program literature was always a positive

experience. As I chose nurturing, loving

sponsors, they affirmed me and my baby

steps toward wholeness and healing. All

of these, and other tools, worked slowly

to bring about an awareness that I held

the key to my own prison door and gave

me the courage to take the key and free

myself from negativity..


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will choose positive thoughts and


actions that bring me freedom.

Recovery Meditations ~ Sublimation ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 21, 2011

SUBLIMATION
"People who are happy don't use food to

sublimate. Food is supposed to be good

for you - not make you feel good!"

Gary Null

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All compulsive overeaters use food to

sublimate. Sublimation in layman’s terms

is any habit or technique we use to

alter or change our reality - for better

or worse! Sublimation methods of choice

are a great gauge to measure mental and

physical health. Poor choices are using

food, gambling, television, alcohol,

drugs, shopping, excessive sleep or too

many passive activities. Healthy choices

are meditation, visual imagery, prayer,

journaling, yoga, physical exercise,

relaxation exercises, deep breathing,

etc. Anything from lawn mowing to

vacuuming could be an act of sublimation

- IF done with high level of awareness

and concentration. A person who's high

up the ladder spiritually sees Higher

Power in all things at all times. Since

we sublimate regardless, the trick is to

make it a consciously controlled

positive sublimation rather than

subconscious negative sublimation.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will consciously incorporate positive, healthy methods of sublimation.

Recovery Meditations ~ Avoidance ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 20, 2011

~ AVOIDANCE ~


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"Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.."

Aldous Huxley

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Step 1 has a basic principle behind it

which is truth. For me that truth is,

just as I use tools for recovery, there

are tools that my willful mind uses to

keep me rooted in my disease. One of the

strongest is avoidance.

Recovery can bring up a lot of painful

issues and have me recall situations in

which I feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I

find that these old feelings have a way

of creeping into my psyche. Suddenly

some old behavior comes rushing back and

I find myself using avoidance as a means

to protect myself. Other times, I find

myself acting very willfully by

deliberately putting things off like

going to the gym even when I know that

it is good for me, I enjoy myself and am

always happy for having gone..

My avoidance can take the form of

rebellion against a person, chore, or

situation.

Recovery has taught me to face

situations. Once the situation has been

faced, I often feel a sense of immediate

relief. I know that the deed is done, my

fears whether they be realistic or not,

usually fall away, and sometimes I even

feel a little silly for having avoided

the situation in the first place.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will fact the situations that I encounter today with action.

Recovery Meditations ~ Human Spirit ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 19, 2011

~ THE HUMAN SPIRIT ~

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The human spirit is stronger than

anything that can happen to it.


Unknown

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I spent most years of my life feeling

like a damaged person, one who was

permanently and irreparably defective. I

am the survivor of abuse, and had been a

practicing compulsive overeater since

early childhood. The only way I knew

myself was broken, hopeless, and damaged

beyond repair. On the days when I could

manage to have a goal, my goal was to

make the best of it ... and to simply

survive the remainder of my days on this

earth.

Recovery has transformed my view of

myself and my experience of life. In

receiving the love, support and guidance

of my friends on this journey I began to

see a glimmer of hope. With the loving

care of my sponsors I began to take the

Steps, and I learned to live them out

... one day at a time.

In taking the Steps and living them out,

I found my buried spirit, and I found

that it was alive and well! In recovery

I became reacquainted with the spiritual

part of myself that I thought was lost

forever. In this connection, I learned

to live, laugh, and hope again. My

spiritual connection is stronger than

anything that can happen to me. This is

the truth in my life today, and it

transforms me to peace, joy, and love

greater than I had ever dreamed.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will practice Step Eleven, and improve


my conscious contact with God. I will


choose to live in connection with my


inner spirit.

Recovery Meditations ~ Step Eleven ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 18, 2011

~ STEP ELEVEN ~


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"Be like the bird that, passing on her

flight awhile on boughs too slight,

feels them give way beneath her, and yet

sings, knowing that she hath wings. "

Victor Hugo

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Step eleven tells us to seek "through

prayer and meditation to improve our

conscious contact with God as we

understand Him, praying only for

knowledge of His will for us and the

power to carry that out." For me, that

is a daily, some times, minute by minute

task. As a food addict and compulsive

overeater I face temptation daily and

need to be in fit spiritual condition to

resist. I do this by making a daily

conscious contact with the God of my

understanding. Then I am connected when

I need the fox hole prayers like, "Help

me!" or "I’m in trouble!"

Step eleven for me is a spiritual

discipline to be practiced daily. I do

not do that perfectly, but I aspire to

connect daily with my God. As I connect

I pray for His will for my life and the

power to carry that out. It is easy to

get selfish with my prayers and step

eleven helps me with this. There are

certain things that I know are His will,

such as attending meetings, talking to

my sponsor, using the tools and staying

connected to my God. If I am unsure, I

pray for God’s will and leave the rest

to Him.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will maintain a fit spiritual


condition by connecting with the God of


my understanding.

Recovery Meditations ~ Happiness ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 17, 2011

~ HAPPINESS ~

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Happiness is an achievement brought about by inner productiveness. People succeed at being happy by building a liking for themselves.

Erich Fromm

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It has been said that if one of us ever
treated another human being the way we
treated ourselves, we would be liable
for criminal charges. I did not treat
myself as a friend, someone I loved; I
constantly fed into my unhappiness.
Alcoholics Anonymous
co-founder Bill W. was asked, shortly
before he died, to sum up the program in
the lowest common denominator. He
replied, "Get right with yourself, with
God, then with your neighbor."
Therefore, it stands to reason that I
must start making friends with myself. I
must treat myself with love and dignity,
and the result will be happiness. To be
happy, joyous, and free is the
by-product of obedience to the program.

ONE DAY AT A TIME ...

Am I going to try being happy?
Am I going to make friends with myself?

Recovery Meditations ~ Gratitude ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 16, 2011

~ GRATITUDE ~

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It is good to say thank you to the Lord, to sing praises to the God who is above all gods ... He is my shelter. There is nothing but goodness in Him!

The Bible, Book of Psalms

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Since I first walked into these rooms, I was welcomed with open arms. Everyone said, "Welcome home." In my gut I felt welcomed into the fellowship, but only now, after years of accepting it, do I finally get it.

Who is this God everyone is saying cares about us? I felt God was too busy creating and managing the universe to concentrate on any one individual, let alone each and every one of us. Now, I don't know how anyone else acted while in the clutches of their disease, but I do know how I reacted. I was not a very nice person to be around. If you said the sky was blue, I would say it was black. Nothing was right in my world and I refused to trust anyone or anything; I was rebellious. That is how I treated God! I dared God to fix me, to take away my desire for food, to come into my life so I would know it.

Well, people told me God meets you where you are. I learned the hard way that God does reveal Himself to you in whatever way works for you. For me that has been by learning to listen to people share in meetings and verbally state what God has been trying to get through my thick skull. When I read program literature, I

hear little voices of recovering people speak of how God is doing for them what they couldn't do for themselves. I watch people in recovery living a new kind of life, in which they are participants. I learn from them how to live rather then bouncing off the walls because I only reacted to life. I am beginning to see all the little things that I have been given from God through my interactions with fellow compulsive overeaters. My

soul feels welcomed in this fellowship. I feel I have a new family in which to heal my wounds from my family of origin. I am filled with immense gratitude to a God that cares enough about each and everyone of us.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will stop and take inventory of all the blessings I receive, each and every day, from a loving, supportive fellowship and a God of my understanding who loves me enough to put up with all my baggage.

Recovery Meditations ~ Kind Words ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 15, 2011

~ KIND WORDS ~

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"Kind words can be short and easy to speak,

but their echoes are truly endless."

Mother Teresa

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How many times are we gifted with

newcomers to our meetings? They are so

easy to see as they huddle in the back

of the room -- usually as close to the

exit as possible. Their oversized coat

is a good giveaway, especially in

July. Their eyes show the fear and

anxiety that we all felt. Sure, we made

it, and so can they.

I remember the elder who first said

those magical words to me -- those two

simple words -- "Welcome Home." The

warmth and safety those words held were

immense. I felt that my body was huge,

and I was embarrassed in a room full of

people who looked very similar to

me…but my eyes could not see

that. They were filled with tears

because of those two words. Welcome

home. Whoever that person was, I have

two words for you, "Thank you."

What can you do to make a newcomer feel

welcome to your meeting? Let us not

forget that all-important first hug. I

remember mine; do you remember yours? It

felt good, I'll bet. So welcome the

newcomer and let them know they are

home.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will do my part to welcome the


newcomer into our fellowship.

Recovery Meditations ~ Perfectionism ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 14, 2011

~ PERFECTIONISM ~


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"Shooting stars come out of the darkness."

Unknown Author

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Today I am wading through guilt and

shame as I try to step into the

Light. My ankles are mired in

unfulfilled visions and lost

dreams. Childhood voices scream at me of

my Potential. What are you doing? You're

smart, talented, and beautiful. What are

you doing with your life? You have the

capacity for a great job, why do you

loll in mediocrity? You're close to

thinness, why can't you eat less? You

could be beautiful, why don't you take

more time with your hair, makeup, have

manicures or plastic surgery? Why do you

hover around "good enough"?

I remember when I had all these things,

I wanted different things. The voices

remind me I am not perfect, only a

perfectionist. My goals remind me of

what I lack. My tears remind me I am not

what I preach. My Higher Power reminds

me I am still on the easel, and grateful

for my journey. My darkness reminds me I

live in the Light.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I seek the light of recovery that is


seeking me.

Recovery Meditations ~ Serenity ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 13, 2011

~ SERENITY ~


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"The final wisdom of life requires not

the annulment of incongruity but the

achievement of serenity with and above

it."

Reinhold Niebuhr

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When I started coming to Recovery Group

meetings, I heard the word "serenity"

used frequently. I waited for someone to

turn the serenity light switch on for

me. I thought if I kept coming, the guy

in charge of lights would turn mine on,

and then I would possess and understand

serenity! But the people in the meetings

kept telling me, "You need to work the

steps." I began to work them with a

vengeance, the way a compulsive person

-- such as I am -- tends to function.

With each passing day I have begun to

feel more comfortable living in my own

skin. My fears, worries about the

future, and anxieties have all

decreased. I have made a more personal

connection with my Higher Power. I have

begun to develop friendships with other

people in Recovery Group. The loving

friendships here have had a huge impact

on how I feel about myself. They have

caused me to experience more self-love

and self-acceptance. I have come to the

point where I now know that no matter

what happens, things will eventually

work out for the best for me.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will continue to attend meetings to


experience serenity.

Recovery Meditations ~ Worry ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 12, 2011

~ WORRY ~

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Don't worry about the world coming to an end today.

It's already tomorrow in Australia.

Charles Schultz

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Worry...that's a topic I'm really good

at! Since working the Twelve Steps,

however, I am beginning to see some

things about worry that, hopefully, will

soon make it a thing of the past in my

life. After all, why should I worry?

What has worry ever done for me, except

mess up my life?

I am seeing that when I am worrying

about something, I have not turned it

over to my Higher Power, and I am

continuing to act from my own

self-will. Or, I did turn it over to my

Higher Power, but didn't really trust

Him to take care of it, and so I took it

back!

I had a breakthrough, just a couple of

days ago, concerning worry. I was

concerned about a decision my husband

and I had to make and it was so far

beyond my ability to see into the future

that I gave up and prayed for

help. Somehow I let go and let

God. Suddenly a beautiful stillness and

peace came over me. I felt calmer than I

had in years ... very calm and still and

at peace. I felt completely reassured

that God was handling my "decision" and

that God was completely competent to do

so.


ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I abandon worry. I let go and let God,


and enjoy the serenity and peace of


trust in God.

Recovery Meditations ~ Courage ~ One Day at a Time ~ May 11, 2011

~ COURAGE ~

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"The courage of life is often less a

dramatic spectacle than the courage of

the final moment; but it is no less than

a magnificent mixture of triumph and

tragedy."

John F. Kennedy

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As a little girl, I often daydreamed of

a knight in shining armor who would ride

bravely into my life and rescue me from

my fears and insecurities. This knight

would be fearless; un-phased by

fire-breathing dragons, deep dark caves,

or howling winds. He would have courage

where I had only fear.

The knight never came. I began to look

for other rescuers in my friends,

rolemodels, teachers, and church. Still

I could not find what I sought. My fears

continued to scream in my soul ... and I

felt so weak. I turned to food in an

attempt to silence the monsters in my

belly.

Sometimes my fear and hopelessness were

so desperate that I almost ended my life

- yet something inside of myself stopped

me from doing so. Something inside of me

clung to life and eventually brought me

to The Recovery Group.

In this group of amazing people

I immediately noticed the courage they

exhibited in confronting the challenges

in their lives and in choosing to learn

and grow from every failure and every

success. I marvel at the courage with

which they keep moving towards more and

more healing, in spite of their fears.

They have courage in spite of their fears.

The open, honest sharing of dear friends

in recovery has taught me that even I

had courage all along. Courage is not

the absence of fear; if there were no

fear, there’d be no need for courage.

Courage means making the choice to move

forward in spite of our fears.



ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .


I will honor the courage I have. I will


thank God for giving me the strength to


move forward in spite of fear. I will


celebrate the courage I see in my


friends and I will encourage them on


their journey.