Recovery Meditations ~ Focus ~ One Day at a Time ~ January 13, 2011

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It takes a long time to become young.

Pablo Picasso

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By the time I came to the Twelve Step

program, I had forgotten how to have fun.

My whole world revolved around food --

eating it, planning to eat it, or not eating

it (and being very aware of it). When asked

to go anywhere, what first came to mind is

what foods I could eat there. I would agree

to go only if I were in the mood for the kind

of food that would be available, and if the

person going with me would be interested

in eating it too. Parties were all about the

food, not who I'd see and meet. Family

reunions were about Aunt Betty's specialty

dish and Uncle John's grilled meats.

This focus on food made me forget how to

have fun. I even forgot what I liked to do, if I

ever knew. The truth is that fun came to

mean eating, and it was what I liked to do.

In the recovery program, I've learned that I have

choices; I just couldn't see them for the food!

The first time I went to a party where I didn't

even think about the food, but enjoyed all the

new people I met while reconnecting with old

friends, I was shocked when I ended up at the

refreshment table. The party was almost over,

and I hadn't visited this area the second I walked

in the door! What a relief! And what fun! I came

home full of life and love and laughter. I hadn't

felt so young in years.


ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I will pray to keep my focus away from food and instead focus on life.