~ PROGRESS ~
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" ... I was taught that the way of progress is neither swift nor easy."
Marie Curie
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I have always been the queen of quick
fix, so if I wanted something to happen,
it had to happen today if not
yesterday. So coming into the program
was very hard for me, in that for the
first time I have had to realise that
recovery is not an overnight thing. For
a perfectionist like me, that has been a
very hard lesson to learn, in that I
don't have to have perfect recovery. My
journey in this program has been an up
and down one, with many slips along the
way, and everytime I have slipped, I
have had to remember that I may think
I'm a failure, but I'm only a failure if
I fail to pick myself up. In the past if
I made a mistake, I was a total and
utter failure, but I know now that all I
have to do each time is to pick myself
up, dust myself off and start over.
The other thing I've learned in the
program is that I also always need to
remember where I came from, and when I
look back, I can see the progress I have
made. My self esteem is growing, and
even though I still seem to slip back
into the old character defects from time
to time, they are nowhere near as bad as
in the past. I am able to forgive people
whom I thought I would never be able to
forgive, and I make amends whenever the
need arises, and as a result my
relationships with people have improved
dramatically.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
May I remember that in this program, it is always progress and perfection that counts.