~ SELF KNOWLEDGE ~
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We're our own dragons as well as our own
heroes and we have to rescue ourselves
from ourselves.
Tom Robbins
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I always tried to do my best in
everything I did. Studies, school, and
managing my own family are some good
examples. Being in control made it seem
as though I always did as I was told,
but I had a very difficult time Being on
my own and thinking for myself. The
talent I was born with gave me a good
start at being an artist, but I couldn't
seem to make a successful career out of
it. I was scared and shy and didn't dare
be on the forefront of making this
talent into what I wanted it to be.
When I started on my path to Recovery, I
found that I was being too much of a
perfectionist. I was always told to do
things perfectly and I tried and tried
but never seemed to satisfy my parents
or the god of my childhood. So when I
grew up I was so hard on myself that I
lost the creativity I was born
with. Creativity can't thrive in a
hostile environment.
One day while reading an author I liked,
I read that I had to "get out of my own
way". I was a dragon trying to do
something creative and it didn't work. I
have to learn to "rescue myself from
myself" so I can do my art with the
talents that are God-given.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I realize that if I want to see myself
as I really am, I cannot stand in my own
shadow.