~ AVOIDANCE ~
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"Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.."
Aldous Huxley
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Step 1 has a basic principle behind it
which is truth. For me that truth is,
just as I use tools for recovery, there
are tools that my willful mind uses to
keep me rooted in my disease. One of the
strongest is avoidance.
Recovery can bring up a lot of painful
issues and have me recall situations in
which I feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I
find that these old feelings have a way
of creeping into my psyche. Suddenly
some old behavior comes rushing back and
I find myself using avoidance as a means
to protect myself. Other times, I find
myself acting very willfully by
deliberately putting things off like
going to the gym even when I know that
it is good for me, I enjoy myself and am
always happy for having gone..
My avoidance can take the form of
rebellion against a person, chore, or
situation.
Recovery has taught me to face
situations. Once the situation has been
faced, I often feel a sense of immediate
relief. I know that the deed is done, my
fears whether they be realistic or not,
usually fall away, and sometimes I even
feel a little silly for having avoided
the situation in the first place.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will fact the situations that I encounter today with action.