~ STEP ONE ~
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"The cause is hidden, but the result is known."
Ovid
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When I went to my first meeting and was
told about Step One, that I was to admit
my powerlessness, it was somewhat of a
mystery to me. I thought powerlessness
was weakness. It was obvious that the
result of my compulsive overeating could
be seen by everyone, but to me, I was
not sure that powerlessness was the
answer to the problem. As I kept going
to meetings and listening to people
share about powerlessness, read the
literature, and talked to my sponsor, I
learned that powerlessness was not
weakness. In fact, to admit my
powerlessness, was to connect me to a
power that was greater than I had ever
experienced before in my life.
The paradoxes of the program, such as we
"lose to win" "give to receive" are true
of admitting my powerlessness to find a
greater power. In The Twelve Steps and
Twelve Traditions of Overeaters
Anonymous on p. 5 it reads, "Later we
discovered that, far from being a
negative factor, the admission of our
powerlessness over food opened the door
to an amazing newfound power." What a
blessing it is to now know that I am
powerless, and have opened the door of a
newfound power through the steps, the
tools and my Higher Power.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I will freely admit my powerlessness and gladly open the door to the newfound power in my life.