~ ADMITTING MISTAKES ~
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"A man should never be ashamed to own he has been in the wrong, which is but saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday."
Alexander Pope
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Most of my life I had spent in blaming
others for all the bad things that
happened in my life, and I never learned
to take responsibilty for my part in
anything. I thought that life had
treated me unfairly, but mostly it was
because someone else had wronged me. I
wallowed in self pity and justifiable
anger, and not surprisingly, I found
comfort in food so I could get through
the pain of being treated so badly by
others.
When I came into the program and began
working the steps, I was horrified to
learn that I was expected to do a
searching and fearless inventory of my
wrongdoings, for after all wasn't it
others who had harmed me and not the
other way around? Slowly I realised
that I had a part to play in all the
events in my life, and that only by
clearing up the wreckage of my past and
keeping my side of the street clean, did
I have any hope of recovery. I had to
swallow my pride and admit when I was
wrong, and when I did that, miracles
began to happen. Instead of feeling hard
done by and bad about myself as I had
thought I would, the exact opposite
happened, and I started on a journey of
growth and increasing self esteem that
never ceases to surprise me. When I am
able to admit that I'm wrong and
apologise for my part in any conflict or
misunderstanding, without expectation of
anything back from the other person, I
strengthen my recovery in this program.
ONE DAY AT A TIME ...
I will admit my mistakes whether I believe that the fault is mine or not, because that is the way that I grow in my recovery.