~ PERFECTIONISM ~
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"Shooting stars come out of the darkness."
Unknown Author
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Today I am wading through guilt and
shame as I try to step into the
Light. My ankles are mired in
unfulfilled visions and lost
dreams. Childhood voices scream at me of
my Potential. What are you doing? You're
smart, talented, and beautiful. What are
you doing with your life? You have the
capacity for a great job, why do you
loll in mediocrity? You're close to
thinness, why can't you eat less? You
could be beautiful, why don't you take
more time with your hair, makeup, have
manicures or plastic surgery? Why do you
hover around "good enough"?
I remember when I had all these things,
I wanted different things. The voices
remind me I am not perfect, only a
perfectionist. My goals remind me of
what I lack. My tears remind me I am not
what I preach. My Higher Power reminds
me I am still on the easel, and grateful
for my journey. My darkness reminds me I
live in the Light.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I seek the light of recovery that is
seeking me.